Letter for my Future Prince #2

Dear Future Prince,

I was asking myself before I went to bed last night if I was being true to myself. If I am really the girl who opened up on how I feel. If I can encourage other people to accept and respect differences when in all true fairness, I am still being drowned by my own self-criticism about how bad I look or how stupid and immature I am. It's actually quite tiring showing up with my brightest smile while other people glared at me and stabbed me behind my back for things I cannot control.

I want to act like there's nothing wrong but the truth is I am very much more affected than what I care to admit, even to myself.

Why do I have to be so insecure?

I know that imperfections when it comes to physical attributes cannot be denied. But, why do people try to cover or change those imperfections to become perfect? Why can't they just accept that imperfection and make it a part of their identity? It was maddening that I have to be drowned in this sea of thoughts about my own set of evidence of being a human.

Are you prepared to accept my imperfections and insecurities when we meet?

It is true that I am in the process of developing myself, to be the best version of the girl you will meet tomorrow. But, are you going to be ready to accept the whole me without asking or demanding for me to change to suit your preference? Are you ready to fight my battles with me?

Because I am.

I am ready to accept you, the whole you. The man behind the facade of the true gentleman you ought to show the world. I want to meet the person who likes to sing silently when nervous, the prince battling his own nightmares.

I am prepared to accept you as my equal, a partner who God will send for me in the future. I am prepared to love you both your good and your bad side. For that is the way it is.

I may not know you now but I know deep in my heart that I will love you in every single way that I can and I pray that you will do the same.

You are fighting your own battles right and now and I am fighting my own wars, we are still both independent and capable of doing that but when you grew weak and in need of support, I know that God will send us in each other's lives to support and to comfort.

I hope to meet you soon,

Love,

Your Future Princess

(05/22/2018)